Up North

This past week I was in Minnesota with some of Katie's old friends, and their families. Delia, Ali, Drea, Sam, Dayna, Sam, Alex, baby Ayla, Cathy, and my family. We spent the time getting really close with them, as some people mentioned, it almost feels like family.

I saw the Mississippi River for the first time, well that I remember ;) We visited St. Cloud State University, saw where Katie went. It almost felt like she was with us, by our sides. It was a comforting trip.

I saw different sides of everyone that I hadn't seen before. I had a nice almost "venting" time with Delia. We had quite the adventure too. We went on this long walk through the woods where Katie apparently "dragged" her to after having Ali. We found a path leading off the main path, and of course, followed it. It led us through some shoulder high grass, pricklies, and mud. But soon enough we found the river! We had to slide down a steep hill to get to it, but it was worth it. It felt like something Katie would have done.

We also saw some beautiful gardens, the Munsinger Gardens. There was so many colors and different types. I even saw one called the Santa Claus flower. :) It was red with white around the edges of the leaves. Meanwhile all the little kids getting soaked in the water fountain.

Hmm, on the car ride there, we stopped at places we had stopped on our way to see Katie when she was in college.

All in all it was a well needed trip, with lots of fun included.

Minds.

How do our minds know stuff, when even we don't? How do they change our mood, when we don't even realize why, until we really think about it.

June is by far, the hardest month of the year. But I didn't even realize it was June, until I took a step back, checked out my mood, and thought about it... I've been quieter, slower, sadder, and I didn't know why. I was even getting mad at myself for it. How did my brain figure all this out without me having any idea?

It also explains these weird dreams. I've been having dreams, that I don't remember, but I wake up in tears, or a wet pillow. I only remember one dream, out of all of them. And of course, it had to do with Katie, and her death. I want to know how my brain can come up with all this stuff, without me thinking of it.

Even though I can't touch your face, I feel you with me every day, I wish you could see all my dreams coming true, When I get lost I close my eyes, And I feel you shining down so bright, I feel you shining down on me.

What I've Decided

I've figured out alot lately. Such as:

• I really really really really dislike The Hobbit. It is by far one of the worst pieces of literature ever written, and I don't understand why the heck it is in the FRESHMAN curriculum. Don't we have it rough enough as it is? I read one paragraph and have to reread it 10 times because I can't comprehend what I just read. Mind you, one single chapter is atleast 35 pages, and there are 20 chapters. AND next we have The Odyssey?! Hahahaha who do they think they are making us do this.
• I dislike cheerleading. Especially cheerleading coaches. They play favorites, they are JUST like stereotypical highschool cheerleaders (the kind I can't stand). I'm reallyyyy considering quiting, I will not last another year being treated with no respect like I don't matter.
• I'm done being a weenie freshman. Everyones just out to step all over you and eat your soul. But I'm trying my hardest not to let it get to me.
• Scary looking deans, actually are very nice and caring.
• I wasn't made for drama. I can finally admit, I am way more mature than a big chunk of my highschool, which suckssss a lot.
• I cannot stand pregnant english teachers. They piss me off. I want to bite them.

7 Weeks

Just 7 weeks til freshman year is over, and summer is here. Those 7 weeks couldn't go by fast enough :p I'm ready for a break.

New Music

You guys should check out Chase Coy. He's a newer artist. I really like his music :)

Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances, you just have to live life to the fullest. laugh as much as you can, spend all your money, tell someone what they mean to you, tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, pig out, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, smile until your face hurts, don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love... & most of all live in the moment cause when you look back someday knowing you have no regrets its going to be what makes you smile. :)

Quick catch up?

I figured its time to post again... but I just can't think of what to write about.

Hmm. Cheer's over! That's always good news right?? What else. I learned that marshmallow fluff doesn't freeze, and just engulfs everything you try to put on it. I started drivers ed today. Woo hoo? Ummmmm. I really don't know what else. We had choral fest last weekend. It was alright. But I miss Mahone's choir. And the guest conductor last year was wayyy better, I didn't like this guy at all. He kind of scared me too. Oh I also had to sing alone infront of my whole choir. THAT was fun... nooottttt. Haha. That's about all going on recently.