Things I've Realized

*Oh one more thing I've learned. I can be happy, and I certainly am happy. But I've realized, I'm still hurting. One little word, saying her name, one stupid song, or quote, or memory. And within seconds, I'm in tears again.*

So, high school has put me through so much. I have gone through so much this year, it's unbelievable. I've made some amazing new friends, I've learned more about myself, I've been cheated on, I've learned what I can and cannot do... and learned to accept it, I've been through ups and downs, but mainly, I've greatly improved my life.

Some things I've learned about me...

I have no tolerance, for B.S. None, at all. And if I'm around it, I immediately tense up and keep to myself.

I have learned that a lot of what high school kids say, are lies.

I've learned soo much about guys. Guys, as friends, and guys, as more than friends. I've learned it's wayyyy easier to be friends with guys. Just because they are so laid back. And then, I've learned what I like in a guy, and what I need in a guy. I've learned how to deal with crappy ones, who don't care. I've learned how to deal with sluts (pardon my language) who think it's perfectly fine to go around taking boyfriends. I've learned how to like, and move on, not because you want to, but because you know you'll get hurt if you don't.

I've learned how to be more social, talk more.

I have come to realize, I really dislike cheerleaders... even though I am one. But, I'm in, to try to change peoples thoughts on cheerleaders. People see me, and say "Whoa, you're a cheerleader? You don't act like one at all". That's when I feel accomplished.

Hmm.. what else.

I've learned how to say Taylor Lautner is gorgeous in French - Taylor Lautner est beau.

I've learned trig, sine, cosine, tangent, I've learned even moree about volume and surface area. I've learned about polygons, polyhedrons, angles, shapes. I've learned more about shapes than I thought was possible. More than I learned in 1st grade.

I've learned how to make a business card, flyer, comic book, and mug. I've learned more about printing and graphic industries than I've ever wanted to even know.

I've learned that WWI was a complete waste of time, money, and loss of lives.

I've learned how to sing extremely high notes. Higher than I thought possible for the human voice.

I've learned how to accept on some days, that I am pretty. I've learned, this really helps you out during your day as well.

I've learned to think "Today is a good day" and it will be a good day! I've learned if you go to school with a frown, or in tears, bad things just continue happening to you.

I've learned I'm very self-aware of myself. I've also learned, this is a good quality. So says my counselor.

I've learned I have lots of great friends who truly care about me.

I've learned who I want around when all I want to do is smile. And I've learned who really can make me smile.

I've learned that I absolutely adore the butterfly feeling in my stomach, and I love smiling uber big at that one special boy.

People say high school changes people... Do I agree? Absolutely. However, I believe, for me at least, it changed me for the better. Yes, I've seen old friends change, go down a road they weren't on 2 years ago. I've seen the used-to-be straight A students, suddenly fail, and go into drugs and alcohol. But... I'm thinkin high schools not gonna be as bad as they say. :)

OH! and I've also learned that for some people, it's pretty damn easy to get over death. And that doesn't make me happy.