Andd I'm off...

To another day at the newest form of Nazi Camps. Ughh school's beginning to become a dragg.

Ronnie Bachman

So last friday at school, we had a guest speaker, Ronnie Bachman. He's a motivational speaker. At age four, his legs were completely amputated. He has no part of the limbs at all. So now he gets around in a scooter. And he is SO happy with life. It is amazing how just completely happy this guy is. He talked to all the freshman about being happy, and treating eachother completely fair. He was motivational. I've never heard over 500 freshman be so quiet and attentive. He taught us all 3 amazing words. I love you. and he said them to all of us. You really don't realize how much those words can affect you. He told us a cool story. When he was ten, he had a toy big wheel he got around on. and he went to a store down the street on it. when he came out, it was gone. And there were two 15 year olds standing there, they picked him up, and dragged him to an alley. Mind you, they didn't know him, he didn't know them, he hadn't done anything to them, they just saw him from the restaurant across the street and thought this would be fun. They beat him up, badly. Bleeding mouth, nose, eyes, face. Then, one sat on him, and the other poured pepper into his eyess. At this point, I was crying, of course. He said this was the worst day of his life. Later in life, he became best friends with Steven Tyler, from Aerosmith, and was a broadcaster for Detroit. One day, he was at a concert, and a random guy comes up to him, and introduces himself as the kid who poured pepper into his eyes as a kid. He also told Ronnie, that he now is married and has 2 kids, and both of his kids are disabled. Mhm, karma. Hm. What else did he say. Oh, one day, minding his own business, some guy comes up to him and says "Wow if i looked like you, i'd kill myself" WHO WOULD SAY THAT, especially to his face? But with Ronnie's happy view on life, he replied with "Ha I was thinkin' the same damn thing about you!" I respect this guy with all my heart. He has a kid too. He said when people ask him why his wife divorced him they ask "She couldn't handle it?" and he always says "Shooot I couldn't handle her!" and he got full custody of his daughter who is now 30. Then at the end of his speech, we could go up and meet him in person, which I of course did. He hugged me, and called me a beautiful sweetheart :) It was pretty nifty.

Brryan Jackson

So tonight, at our schools talent show, we had a guest speaker there to raise awareness of HIV/AIDS. All the money we raised tonight went to this awareness by the way. So anyways, his name is Brryan Jackson. Maybe some of you have heard of him? His life story reallyy touched me, so I thought I'd share it.

When he was 11 months old, he was in the hospital for an asthma attack. And his father decided he didn't want to pay the child support. So after 48 hours of his mother being in the room with him, the father said "Go get something to eat and drink. I'll watch the baby" The mom left. And the dad intentionally injected his OWN baby child with HIV positive blood. Hoping this baby of his would die, and there would be no more child support to pay. HOW SICK IS THAT. By this point, I was drowning in tears. Anyways. He went on. The doctors did test after test after test on him. He was given 5 months to live. And they sent him home, and said "Have a good life" Well, he survived after these 5 months! He wasn't allowed into elementary school, because of his disease. After a while, they let him in. But, he couldn't associate with any other kids, he had to bring his own water, and could only come for a half day. All the kids picked on and teased him. By 7th grade, it got to the point where they were beating him up. He was kicked off the basketball and football team. So he became a male cheerleader. (Woot woot) He fell in love with a girl. And after she found out he was HIV positive, she never talked to him again. He wrote amazing love songs for her. And sang them to us. And said "I may never see her again, but wherever she is... I still love her." Aww. He graduated high school last year. And now he is out and determined to do something amazing with his life. He's been all around the world spreading awareness about HIV. He's been on tv shows, he's received awards, like the Halo award from Alicia Keys. So after the talent show, I walk out of the auditorium just crying, and he's standing there! He gave me a hug, and I got my picture with him :) I also bought a bracelet and red ribbon and donated $5. And I won a t-shirt. It was an amazing night. And this guy just blew me away.

So that was my night. Even retelling the story to my mom, I teared up again. I got like 6 videos of him. :)

Something cool.

Tell Her She's Beautiful

Type:	Causes - Rally
Network:	Global

Start Time:	Thursday, February 11, 2010 at 12:00am
End Time:	Sunday, February 14, 2010 at 11:55pm
Location:	ENTIRE WORLD

Description

It has come to my attention that as I grow older, girls get more and more self conscious of themselves. This hurts me, because every girl is beautiful in their own way. They all want to live up to standards that the media has set for them, like being paper thin or double Z breasts. It really breaks my heart to see all of the girls to wallow around and hate who they are and think they aren’t worth something.

I’m making this event so everyone can tell anyone that they think is beautiful, that they are beautiful. Just tell them. They don’t hear it enough, and they want to hear it. Tell anyone; tell your friend, your mother, your sister, your cousin, your dog for all I care. Let’s show girls that we don’t care about the standards that they set for themselves and that we like them the way they are.

Let’s show every girl that they really are beautiful. So tell them, it’ll make their day.

Girls, you ARE beautiful.

Things I've Realized

*Oh one more thing I've learned. I can be happy, and I certainly am happy. But I've realized, I'm still hurting. One little word, saying her name, one stupid song, or quote, or memory. And within seconds, I'm in tears again.*

So, high school has put me through so much. I have gone through so much this year, it's unbelievable. I've made some amazing new friends, I've learned more about myself, I've been cheated on, I've learned what I can and cannot do... and learned to accept it, I've been through ups and downs, but mainly, I've greatly improved my life.

Some things I've learned about me...

I have no tolerance, for B.S. None, at all. And if I'm around it, I immediately tense up and keep to myself.

I have learned that a lot of what high school kids say, are lies.

I've learned soo much about guys. Guys, as friends, and guys, as more than friends. I've learned it's wayyyy easier to be friends with guys. Just because they are so laid back. And then, I've learned what I like in a guy, and what I need in a guy. I've learned how to deal with crappy ones, who don't care. I've learned how to deal with sluts (pardon my language) who think it's perfectly fine to go around taking boyfriends. I've learned how to like, and move on, not because you want to, but because you know you'll get hurt if you don't.

I've learned how to be more social, talk more.

I have come to realize, I really dislike cheerleaders... even though I am one. But, I'm in, to try to change peoples thoughts on cheerleaders. People see me, and say "Whoa, you're a cheerleader? You don't act like one at all". That's when I feel accomplished.

Hmm.. what else.

I've learned how to say Taylor Lautner is gorgeous in French - Taylor Lautner est beau.

I've learned trig, sine, cosine, tangent, I've learned even moree about volume and surface area. I've learned about polygons, polyhedrons, angles, shapes. I've learned more about shapes than I thought was possible. More than I learned in 1st grade.

I've learned how to make a business card, flyer, comic book, and mug. I've learned more about printing and graphic industries than I've ever wanted to even know.

I've learned that WWI was a complete waste of time, money, and loss of lives.

I've learned how to sing extremely high notes. Higher than I thought possible for the human voice.

I've learned how to accept on some days, that I am pretty. I've learned, this really helps you out during your day as well.

I've learned to think "Today is a good day" and it will be a good day! I've learned if you go to school with a frown, or in tears, bad things just continue happening to you.

I've learned I'm very self-aware of myself. I've also learned, this is a good quality. So says my counselor.

I've learned I have lots of great friends who truly care about me.

I've learned who I want around when all I want to do is smile. And I've learned who really can make me smile.

I've learned that I absolutely adore the butterfly feeling in my stomach, and I love smiling uber big at that one special boy.

People say high school changes people... Do I agree? Absolutely. However, I believe, for me at least, it changed me for the better. Yes, I've seen old friends change, go down a road they weren't on 2 years ago. I've seen the used-to-be straight A students, suddenly fail, and go into drugs and alcohol. But... I'm thinkin high schools not gonna be as bad as they say. :)

OH! and I've also learned that for some people, it's pretty damn easy to get over death. And that doesn't make me happy.

One of the greatest songs ever written

This is from a while ago.

It opens your chest, it opens your heart and it means that someone can get inside of you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, then one stupid person no different from any other wanders into your life. They did something stupid one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.

Do not stand on my grave and weep,

I am not there, I do not sleep.

I am thousand winds that blow.

I am the diamond glints in the snow.

I am the sunlight on ripened grain.

I am the gentle autumn rain.

When you awaken in the morning's hush

I am the swift uplifting rush of quiet birds in circled flight.

I am the soft stars that shine at night.

Do not stand at my grave and cry;

I am not there, I did not die.