This is sad.

So I'm pretty busy the rest of summer. It's gonna FLY by, here's my schedule-

Tomorrow - Having a "party", Shelly, her husband Travis, Zach, Morgan, and our other neighbors Ben and Lucy are coming over to hang outtt

Saturday - Going to Ben and Lucy's for another "party"

Sunday - Possibly going to school to bring my stuff to my locker, considering I'm going to have to miss open house. >_<

Monday - Babysitting Dani, an 18 month baby (:

Tuesday - I think I'm going to Katie's Meadow if the weather is good. 

Wednesday through Labor Day (Monday) - We're gone :O  DISNEY WORLD I SAY :D Then we get back on Monday about 2 p.m. and the next day I start school. :'( Ahhhhhh.  

Check out my new picture :)  It was taken in the car ride home from Chicago. Zach stole my camera and was talking a bunch of random pictures of everybody in the car, and I happened to like this one.(:

Train station memories

Yesterday, we went to the train station in Chicago to pick up Zach. He took the train to Quincy for a week, and we went with Shelly to get him, so she wouldn't be alone the long car ride. But while we were there, all I could see and think of was Katie running down the stairs with her arms wide open and me running into her arms. I remember getting off the train and having a HUGE grin on my face. It was one time that Grandma, my mom and I took the train to Chicago to spend the day there with her. When we were going down the stairs yesterday,  I could see it all, like it was yesterday. We got the same popcorn that we got with Aunt Katie. Its funny how some things are so clear and vivid, while some you don't remember at all. I remember, that was my first trip to the American Girl Store. I remember being 7, almost 8, and Katie teasing me because the box the dolls come in say "8+". 

It's amazing how much I can write about her, memories, thoughts, missing her... I could write all night. 

Well, we ended up breaking up the trip yesterday, so it wasn't 2 1/2 hours there, then 2 1/2 hours back, all together. We went to 2 malls, ate lunch at Sweet Tomatoes, and dinner at Saluto's. Haha. 

WHOO HOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I got my first choice house :DDDD

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, I'm so happy right now. And so far, I'm only with one of the girls that I'm no longer friends with, and she's the one I would most rather be with, cos she won't do anything. (:  Yay. It's called Iroquois. Wow, that's hard to spell. You can see my teachers Here! It's a link. Mr.Plowe is really cool. He came into our class alot last year. :) And Mr. Moran ran for mayor, but lost it. Haha, though he was mayor of Kenosha a few years ago. Mrs. Fennig was in a 7th grade house last year, so i know her. Then we just found out who my math teacher is today, but I forgot her name. It's long and hard to pronounce.
And while at registration, I saw 2 of my favorite teachers I had last year. They seemed reallyyy happy. Haha.

But the bummer, I didn't get 3-D art. That was what I picked on my form, but I got Family Consumer Science.

I forgot how totally lame middle school drama is. Wow. Kids get mad at things 2nd graders would get mad at. Seriouslyy, I'm done. :))

Ah!!

Right now, I'm super nervous... and worried. Today and tomorrow are school registration, and I'm not going until tomorrow, but I just found out that like all the kids that were in my class last year, are in the house that I DO NOT want to be in. But those kids, and me, are "high honors" or whatever you wanna call it, and there is a specific house for that group. Ahhh, I really don't wanna be there.  And plus, I very much dislike ALL the kids in my class last year. Blahh.

The worst part is, that I have to go tomorrow at like 9 in the morning. >_<  Because after that, I have to go to the dentist at 10:30 to get sealences or however you spell it. Only on 2 teeth, but I gotta sit there with my mouth full of cotton balls while my teeth are basted in baking soda and some other stuff. Ew. Oh well, it's only gonna be 10 minutes. I guess I swallowed the ones that were on my teeth, haha. 

Few friends... not so bad.

I never really thought that I would actually like not having that many friends. But let me tell you, this summer is probably one of my best ever. Now, my friends that I DO have, I am SUPER close to, and I can trust, truly. I know I can because I've spent so much time with them, or talking to them. ;)  And another good thing, there is WAYYYYY less drama with only a few friends. I wish this summer would never end. 

Oh && 

This was in my horoscope for today -

"There is a growing sense of freedom in your life, and the best way to encourage it to continue is to take advantage of it."

Sounds pretty great to me :) Freedom.

Title?

Thoughts and fears race through me,

As school approaches.

At night... my dreams don't make sense

Are these signs? or just my conscience

Scaring me

Visiting great-grandma,

Being called "Katie" feels great

As I sit where she once did

I picture her sitting across the table,

Laughing.

I still miss her so much

The house full of loud voices and fits,

It eats at me too easily

This summer has taught me so much

How louzy my life was, 7th grade changed me,

Caught in a dark cloud, scared to leave

This summer I escaped,

I've found the true Kayla

Now I'm having the time of my life,

I'm finally truly laughing,

Dancing to music again,

Friends can actually make me laugh

I think I'm going to stick with them,

And my toenails

are a different color each week.

Scared the sad out of me

Hah, so last night, around 9, my mom and I went over to Shelly's.  I played Wii with Zach and Bryan. It was funnn. 

It was kind of funny. My mom kept saying "I'm gonna be home by 10" and at 10:30 she came in and said "Kayla, can you run home and get the bottle of wine in the fridge?" Haha. So I went home to get it. and when I got back, Shelly and my mom were outside. They both told me to go in the front door, because Shelly "broke the door". I can't believe I believed them!!! But I started walking towards the front door, and I open the screen door and Zach pops out of the bushes and screams at me. I jumped about 2 feet and almost through the juice in my hand. Bryan was like on the other side of the house, because he didn't know where to go. Haha. But then I was all shaky in the house and Bryan found it absolutely hilarious, but Zach knew what was wrong. Hah.  So he came up to me and was like "I'm sorrrryyyyy" But I still found it funny, and laughed alot. The rest of the night I was shaking though. If you didn't know, I get scared REALLY easy, and I'm super jumpy/jittery/paranoid. So then after like 10 minutes, Shelly asked me to go close Morgans bedroom door, because she was sleeping. So I go and do it, then I come around the corner to go downstairs and Zach is there goes "BOO!" and I screamed, but Morgan's a heaving sleeper, luckily ;)  That was the last of the scaring though. We ended up staying 'til midnight. 

But the whole weekend I was kind of in a mood, where like I just felt sad and depressed. And after I was scared and I laughed so hard, I felt better. :)

Why So Serious?

Haha, so I went to see the Dark Knight again yesterday. My dad took me and Zach to see it. And let me say, it was still 100% awesome the second time. I saw some things I missed with mom, Uncle Ed and John. I saw my 2 favorite scenes again. The pencil magic trick scene and the hospital scene. It was Zach and my dads first time seeing it, so I had to be quiet the whole time. But I still closed my eyes on the one scene I did the first time.... When he made the guy "smile". I forgot how totally awesome and cute* batmans voice is :D, and how cute of a batman Christian Bale is. (And still how cute Heath Ledger is...) Whoo. But now he's ugly with his BUZZ cut. My mom and I were talking about the joker in the car this morning. We talked about how diabolical he is, and yet how totally smart he is too. 

Ah, well then we came home, went swimming, watched movies and ate Chinese. 

I keep having these dreams, where me and my former friends are all friends again, and dreams where the school year sucks. I don't get the dreams where we are all friends... because I don't want to be friends with them. I left them for a reason. My mom was talking about how maybe they've changed, like I have. But I highly doubt they have changed when they are "prank" calling me every week, even though I know it's them. I've thought of what I'm going to say next time though :D Here it is-

I answer - "Hi guys! I miss talking to you. You know, I was starting to think you guys might be mad at me... but then I thought, how silly of me. Why would you guys be mad at me? You have no reason to be mad at me. You guys aren't that low that you would do that. Then I thought maybe you hacked into my myspace, cos somebody did, but you guys aren't that rude and mean. Hm, hows your summer going? Mines going great, I've been hanging out with 2 highschoolers :) Well, it's been nice talking to you, gotta go. My friends are here! Talk to you later, byee."

I told my mom and she said that would be awesome :DD Haha.   

Oh and I found out this morning that my mom thinks I'm as mature as an immature 15 year old. Haha. (That would be Bryan she is comparing me to) Would you consider that good or bad?

Mmm...

It happens to everyone right? It upsets everyone right?

I'm talking about a bad haircut. Thats what I got today. :'(  She cut my bangs too short. If i don't push them to the side, they are blunt bangs (short, above my eyes, straight across bangs) across my forehead. The picture I had was more angled and longer bangs. I wouldn't be so mad except for the fact that registration is August 14, and that's when they take my id picture. I don't want to look like this for my school picture. of 8th GRADE! My last year at this school. 

Okay, now I've had a night to play with them, straighten them differently, mess 'em up... and I've come to not hate my bangs.  I still think they are a little too short for me, but if I get them in place just right, they don't look that bad. I'll put a picture on when they grow out a little.